Sunday, 22 January 2012
After coming home we snuggled up on the sofa Arrianna enjoyed her bottle and Kellyn, Ceienna and Myself, enjoyed Hot Chocolate topped with cream and chocolate sprinkles and marshmallows, Yummy.
Sunday, 15 January 2012
today has been a lovely day despite my girls being under the weather we still had a lovely day. Ceienna was awake most of the night so she was cuddled up with me all night. As morning broke we were join by Kellyn and Arrianna, Arrianna still has a cough and cold, but is loads better. Today she has been getting excited and smiling once more which was wonderful seeing her back to her normal self was wonderful. Even though we not been anywhere nor done anything it was nice to spend time in the children s world. Talking about things they like Ceienna and i talked about Peter Rabbit, a current favorite with my girls and Kellyn has a major interest in Titanic and Sherlock Holmes at the moment. He was also showing me how good he is on the DS, very impressive. Due to the way his brain works getting games for him is hard as he completes them very quickly. Its nice to see this house back to smiles, fun laughter and valuing each other.
Saturday, 14 January 2012
Unfortunately Arrianna is poorly at the moment with a Chest Infection, At 12:09 As the sounds of Fireworks echoed around the village where we live, i jumped out of bed to the sound of Arrianna lying in her cot struggling to breath. The sound was horrible, i struggling between knowing what was best to do to help her and no panicking. Kellyn and Ceienna were sleeping in my bed that night, It seconds felt like hours waiting for Arrianna to breath again, My heart pounding i grabbed Arrianna out of her cot, Lucky picking her up was enough to start her breathing again, but i could see she was struggling. I wanted to put her in the Car and take her straight to Hospital, but i am a single mum and i had two other children asleep upstairs, i never felt so scared and alone. I just didnt know what to do and i was fighting not to panic and stay in control. Making Arrianna comfortable on the sofa i grabbed the phone, ill never forget the look in her eyes i could see how afraid she was and she was cliggling hold of me not wanting to let go. I called Shrop Doc and explained to the call handler what had happened and made clear that She Has Down Syndrome only to be told " What has this to Do With It " it took me a few seconds to stay calm before i could answer, i stayed by the phone waiting hour after after for a reply, but did not get one, the next thing Kellyn was coming down stairs so i gave up waiting for the doctor to call. Arrianna was poorly but was now breathing normally. A few times through that day she was struggling again as i stayed up by her side most of the night cat napping here and there and was on the phone to the Doctor the next morning for an emergency appointment. it was such a relief. She is now on the mend im not used to my children being ill for so long, but i guess this is one difference with Arrianna which add's to Arrianna being Special.
Wednesday, 11 January 2012
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
Well Happy New Year Everyone.
As normal we took our decorations down on New Years eve, i never feel happy having the decorations up for a new year.
Once again New year brought sadness to our family and all the plans we had made for New Year disappeared very quickly and our hearts turned to ice once more. Still to try to cheer up the children, We grabbed loads of treats and headed for our safe place, Mummy's bed, we snuggle together and watched a Dvd. It was so important for us to be together and to be close. The children slept in my bed that night, they need to feel safe.
As Midnight hit, i was woken up to the sounds of Arrianna gasping for breath, It was the most horrible sound , i was so scared. As i grabbed her from her cot she took a deep breath and clung on to me with all her might, she was so scared to, She needed lots of reassuring that she was ok. I spent the next 3 hours holding her hand, her chest sounding terrible, but she was settling.
We spent New Years day having some simple fun, The girls and i played with Ceienna's New horses she had for Christmas, Then later we got out the play dough, we made characters, which was fun and again wanted lots of films together and spent lots of time talking things through as both Kellyn and Ceienna had heads full of Questions.
I have made a wish list for this Family this year there is lots on it, I am determined that this year will be so much fun for us, full of memories. I have been told the Children dont have fun with me, Well watch this space this year, 2011 showed me how much i could achieve, the best thing i did was life coaching. Our family was blessed with the birth of my beautiful little girl Arrianna, This has completely changed me and my life, I have met and made so many wonderful friends who i value. and the best memory i will take away is Camping with the children at Elan Valley and touring Mid Wales. This year 2012, i aim to do more touring, make more friends and just live life to the full, no more excuses not to do something but to just get out there and do it. No i am better from my depression life is beautiful, Every morning starts with a amazing smile from Arrianna and though i may be alone and i may be a single mum, i am going to achieve so much this year cause i want to see just how much we can achieve no matter what happens.
Boxing day our home was opened up to our family, another first was me cooking the dinner for the first time ever, I brought all the meat and vegetables from a local farm and the difference was amazing. I did a choice of Beef or turkey but Everyone tried both, Arrianna especially liked the beef. Even though i had family around the dinner was a heart wrencher, For the last 6 years the children s dad had always done our Christmas Dinner, he was always very good around the house, Though we did have him part time through Christmas it made me realize how much we all miss him, spending Christmas nights alone is terribly lonely. Still we had a lovely time with our family, it was great to spend that time together opening presents and the children all playing together. The girls looked totally stunning in their Pretty dresses, i was so proud of them all.