Afterward i had to learn to get to grips of the new Breast Pump it was very vintage compared with the one i had used in hospital but soon did it and expressed a further 300ml of fresh Breast milk for my baby girl .
the next job was to get on the computer and get reserching i had to find my own breast pump bottles and more for Arrianna i shopped around online looking for the best prices first stop ebay nothing there was a decent price of i hit the high streets Mothercare, Argos, Toys r us, boots i had to compare everything as this was a huge wedge out of my weekly budget. Eventually i settled on Argos and ordered the items ready for the next day.
I then felt like i was diving into treacle as i typed those words into the search banner, DOWNS SYNDROME ASSOCIATION it seemed to take ages and i was just flicking through pages nothing really sinking in web site after web site i looked through nothing satisfyingly my curiosity, looking at the clock it was 4 am just enough time to get some sleep before Kellyn woke up. I pick Arrianna up in my arms and my heart stopped as we made the magical journey up the stairs and i layed her down in her moses basket which had sat by my bed waiting for her for so long now. it was a wonderful feeling.
Just getting myself comfortable i heard Kellyns door open he came in and got in my bed wide awake i knew this could only mean one thing from my son, He wanted to talk, i was right question after question came from him it was like he knew i had not told him everything about his sister, i could not keep it in any more and i heard myself say " Arrianna is Special she isn't like you or me, She will need us to help her lots and to teach her things" Kellyn looked into my eyes and smiled " We can do that Mummy" then off he toddled down stairs. My son knows me far to well.